Time For Another Installment of “Really obvious things I just figured out.”

I’m sure you’ve heard the question, “What would you do if you weren’t afraid?” similar to that is, “What would you do if you knew you couldn’t fail?”Those questions can apply to various situations. In the past  I’ve had trouble answering those. But maybe now I’m moving into a space where I trust the Holy Spirit inside me enough to realized I can answer them, for certain situations at least.

Sunday, listening to my pastor, I knew I wanted to take a vow or a fast to show God my commitment to being self-disciplined, and hungry to hear and do His will. A side effect would be better health, which glorifies God since my body is the temple of the Holy Spirit.              (1 Corinthians 6:19-20)

I texted my husband that I didn’t know what the vow(fast) would be. However, before I could finish writing I realized I did know, but I was afraid of disappointing myself. As if pastor was reading my mind, he said “And if you fall off the wagon, get up and get back at it!”

Then I said to myself, “Don’t condemn yourself for a mistake, dear. Don’t limit yourself, afraid of a mistake that may happen (will happen). ”

Ok, a few deep breaths later, I asked what did I want my vow to be. The big, horrible answer was I will give up all types of meat, poultry and fish. At this point I believe I am vegetarian, not vegan. We’ll see.

(About five years ago, out of the blue, God asked me to become a vegetarian and I stuck with it for about two years. Back then I felt he wanted me to understand about addiction. I just wanted to be obedient. Just as mysteriously, He released me from that eating style. However, I had a sneaking suspicion I would commit to being vegetarian for life at some point. And now I am.)

Vegetables

Vegetables (Photo credit: Martin Cathrae)

Well, it’s not necessary for you to agree with my choice, but if you haven’t figured out how limiting being conflicted is in your life, please re-examine your motivations, behaviors and results. Two of the tell-tale signs that I didn’t recognize for years was being indecisive or taking too long to make a decision. Of course there is the old flip flopping back and forth too.
God is not a God of confusion and He has given us a sound mind. We may say we are confused or conflicted, but I would suggest that often we know the answer. We simply don’t want to accept it. We may say we are hesitant because we don’t want to hurt someone, or we don’t have all the facts or we haven’t heard from God.  Those may be true. But if fear, of failing or succeeding, is really what’s holding you back, recognize it, push it aside and hear what’s in your heart.

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Lord, You Know

1 “The hand of the Lord came upon me and brought me out in the Spirit of the Lord, and set me down in the midst of the valley; and it was full of bones. 2 Then He caused me to pass by them all around, and behold, there were very many in the open valley; and indeedthey were very dry. 3 And He said to me, “Son of man, can these bones live?”

So I answered, “O Lord God, You know.”

4 Again He said to me, “Prophesy to these bones, and say to them, ‘O dry bones, hear the word of the Lord! 5 Thus says the Lord God to these bones: “Surely I will cause breath to enter into you, and you shall live. 6 I will put sinews on you and bring flesh upon you, cover you with skin and put breath in you; and you shall live. Then you shall know that I am theLord.”’”

7 So I prophesied as I was commanded; and as I prophesied, there was a noise, and suddenly a rattling; and the bones came together, bone to bone. 8 Indeed, as I looked, the sinews and the flesh came upon them, and the skin covered them over; but there was no breath in them.

9 Also He said to me, “Prophesy to the breath, prophesy, son of man, and say to the breath, ‘Thus says the Lord God: “Come from the four winds, O breath, and breathe on these slain, that they may live.”’” 10 So I prophesied as He commanded me, and breath came into them, and they lived, and stood upon their feet, an exceedingly great army.”

April's Swoops crop

My Pastor was preaching on Ezekiel 37. I’ve heard the passage preached many times. But this time, one phrase jumped out at me. God asks, “Can these bones live?” What I heard was, can what has been dead/impossible come alive/be possible? Only God can know the answer to the miraculous. Ezekiel was so wise and humble to know that when God suggests the impossible, it’s never about what we can do to accomplish it.

Ezekiel’s response was simple. “Oh Lord God, You know.” In that I heard, “Lord I have no idea, but I know you do and you are able. I trust you.” That resonates in my spirit these days. It feels like He suggests the impossible to me everyday. My humble whisper is “Oh Lord God, You know.”

Is He asking you about some “dry bones”?

In the groove!

I was re-reading my posts here. I see in my first post I said that writing had become difficult for me. I knew that was related to “losing my voice.”  I happily realized yesterday that  I feel like I’ve gotten my groove back.

I’m close to churning out 500 words per day on my book. I’m working on a newsletter for my friends and supporters with updates on Blue progress. I’m planning a newsletter for my church small group. I’m still writing here. Working on my business plan. And I’ve started a couple Squidoo lenses. Yippee.  Good for me!

So now that I am comfortable facing the blank page, I want to get back to the writing  form I once had. But no pressure, not gonna stress myself over it.  It will all come back. And you keep coming back.

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Now that’s a bathing suit!

English: Bathing dress from 1858

English: Bathing dress from 1858 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

It isn’t possible that I have nothing to write about.  Rather, I believe the issue is I have too much to write about. My thoughts are wandering all over.

I could write about today’s thrill of dropping off one of my pieces to be auctioned at a family physician fundraiser in Houston on Friday. But I’ll wait to see how much it goes for and then write about it.  Well, perhaps it doesn’t really matter what it goes for, although I’d really like to help their cause.  “It’s just an honor to be nominated!” hehehe

I could ask you the question I posed to myself earlier this evening (it’s 2 minutes before midnight on Tuesday. Wha? I do my best stuff with one eye open.) The question was, if you do two drawings and don’t like either, does it count that you drew today? Um, yes it does. Cause you learned something in the process and showed the discipline to do the work.

I could tell you about a fabulous 14-year-old, who looks like she’s 18 and continually asks to wear a 2 piece bathing suit. No Way! But I wish she could really understand why her pleas are falling on deaf ears.

I should tell you about the awesome podcast from last Sunday’s service that hubby and I listened to while I was drawing.  It reminded us that:

“Death and life are in the power of the tongue…” Proverbs 18:21 KJV

If we are to speak to the mountain and have it removed, we first have to control our words about our immediate situations. There are so many scriptures that talk about the tongue, it’s unruliness and the benefit of controlling it.  Hubby and I again made a pledge to be so very careful about what we say.  We are one another’s accountability partner.

Yep, it’s not that I have nothing to write about…